Well it's been a pretty busy late fall, early winter. No sooner did I finish bringing in the last of my potatoes and getting my snow moving things ready did it actually start snowing. Then it snowed more, and then it got really, really windy. Today has been sort of a long day cooped up inside. I've seen worse storms in the almost six years that I've lived out here, but this one I actually had nothing better to do. Usually I have to work or am gone for some reason. It's sort of fun just to watch the snow blow and listen to the wind howl.
I keep having the feeling that I never have enough time to do all of the things that I want, I keep thinking that there could be something I could cut out of my life to make more time, but I'm not really sure what that is. On top of that there is even more that I could do that I end up not doing because I simply don't have the time or energy to get them done. There is a guy from Stewart who keeps coming after me to join the Lions club and while I think this would be a good thing it's just something else I would probably go into and do half assed and probably let down people just because I can't give it my full effort.
About the only thing that I really do now with any sense of accomplishment is my real job. I go in there and give my best effort every time. Even that though lately has been tough, my manager has been making it really hard to enjoy my job. While I could sit here and complain about all the bad choices he's made and the seeming things he does just to piss me off, I really don't want to go down that road. I only have to see him for a few short hours each week, but then for the rest of the time I'm there I have to listen to all of my co-workers tell me about all the rude things he does to them.
I guess my batteries are probably pretty low right now and I need something to recharge them what that something is though I'm not really sure. I'll just hang in there and keep writing and hopefully before long the solution will be clear.
I have seen this door look worse, but not a whole lot. What's funny is that we had 11 inches of fluff on the ground covering everything and the wind blew all that snow away and put it in piles like this one.
Anthrotainment
7 years ago
2 comments:
I'm sorry you're feeling so depleted right now. I think we're supposed to feel a little depleated this time of year- to force us into a hibernation of sorts. It's not natural for us to go full throttle through the winter- a time of dormancy for all living things. You have so many aspirations and energy usually, you probably fight hard when it's time to go within. I hope you find your balance Dan.
Hi Dan. Just got around to reading your December post. Today, in NJ, we have gotten 20+ inches of snow and my door looks like yours after the wind gusts! i just want to climb under the blankets and sleep until May! Happy New Year to all and may we find the peace we need to make us happy.
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